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Monday, November 30, 2009
war
2:05 AM
does he know I plan to leave?
is he withholding help as some kind of bargaining chip?
or maybe I think too damn much
maybe he meant what he said
maybe he just didn't want to help
in her hearts of hearts she wants to love
in the dark of night she wants to hold
in the bright of day she wants to protect
in the soul of soul she wants to feel
joy
to be loved
cleansed
to be held
crave
to be protected
alive
to have lived
Sunday, November 29, 2009
punishment
11:22 PM
she punished herself
continues to punish herself
she will finish her penance when it's over
being in it hurts
hurts enough to feel almost alive again
4:04 AM
3:23 AM
Haiz. Can someone just hit me over the head?
Foolish girl. Bought over by a few nice gestures.
How long will the glow lasts this time?
But life's a bitch, we should take comfort and yes, (I hope) love,
where and when one finds it.
Hope and disappointment does go hand in hand.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
1:37 AM
Another disappointment..
When will I ever learn?
Like a foolish dream
Her foolish love
Like an endless stream
Her hope persists
Time after time her wishes seemed
To be crushed under endless avalanche
It seems
Called his pleases and his wish
Laughable Ignominity
Plain stupidity
She laughed and laughed
No more would she bow
No more hopes she vowed
A dead soul holds no emotions
Friday, November 27, 2009
weak
4:50 PM
she who is weaktakes the path of least resistance.she who is strongfights every fkin inch of resistance.fkin weaklingfind some backbones and walk
11:11 AM
Shaken faith.
Empty words.
Absent.
I guess that's all u were to me.
Y does it hurts?
2:21 AM
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
symptoms of love
9:05 PM
Love is universal migraine,A bright stain on the visionBlotting out reason.Symptoms of true loveAre leanness, jealousy,Laggard dawns; Are omens and nightmares -Listening for a knock,Waiting for a sign: For a touch of her fingersIn a darkened room,For a searching look.Take courage, lover! Could you endure such painAt any hand but hers? Robert Graves
seeding doubts
8:15 PM
in the silence of the night,
padded barefoot monsters
with spiked shoulders,
and three eyed demon
wherein when its mouth was wide opened,
sprang three green hued serpents.
in the silence of the night,
danced misty shadows
w flickering lights.
riots of sounds whispered from plugged ears
as the body twirled round and round
in dizzying circles,
running from seeding doubts.