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dont wanna think about it,
just wanna lose myself in it.
dont wanna feel bad bout it,
just wanna kill myself in it.
is this the way that you came around?
should have known better than that.
is that my heart that is crashing down?
should have known better than that.
dont wanna lose you to it
but i just cant help it.
dont wanna lose you in it
but i just cannot stop it.
is this the way that we say goodbye?
should have known better when you came around
but i just refused to think about it.
is this the way that you turn out?
should have said no when you cashed out.
just dont leave mi be,
for im nothing without you.
just dont let mi down,
for im nothing when you let mi frown.
and as the night turns to light,
she wanders aimless.
and for the life of her,
she doesnt understand why she had to suffer
the pain of never having him again.
and as the day progresses and the light intensified,
she stared helpless.
and for the life of her,
she cannot understand why he had left her.
carlsburg sux
when im gone,
know that i loved yall,
that my body's gone
but my spirit lives on.
and when im gone,
dont mourn, dont cry,
just remember my smile
during the best of our time.
and when im gone,
let the memories and joy
lead us pass the point
of sorrow.
and rejoice!
for if even once we have met,
it is enough
for a lifetime of no regrets.
for the loves of my life,
for i believe love can be shared
and yet not be diminished in the process.
for the loves i've had,
for i believe nothing more worthy
to carry from this life to what comes after.
and she really wants to say this to him
whom she has had but lost,
and she really wants to say this to him
whom she loves but can never have again,
and she really wants to say this to them
whom she loves and love her,
and she really wants to say this to them
whom she loves but left her.
and she really wants to say to them
whom she never really contacts.
and when the tide sweeps her away...
let the rain wash the red away...
and when the ground eats her whole...
let the fog swallows the hole...
and when she fades into past...
let the memories they shared lasts...
when i was just a little girl,
i asked my mother,
"what will i be?
will i be pretty?
will i be rich?"
here's what she said to me,
"que sara, sara,
whatever will be, will be,
the future's not ours' to see,
que sara, sara,
what will be will be."
"There's a difference between letting go and giving up.
Letting go is sacrificing what was rightfully yours.
Giving up is forgoing what was never really yours."
"he is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose."
jim elliot
Is she starting to look forward to this game, Out of sight, out of mind?
This game they play,
Where they
Pretended to know each other inside out when they meet,
Where they
Pretended the other does not exist after?
Loving all the things he did,
Loving all make-believes he create,
Feeling feelings left unsaid.
With tears streaming down.
Her hand covered her mouth as it made choked little sounds.
Her eyes stared and blurred,
Spasms passed through her in bouts.
Feelings collided and crashed,
Hopes hoped and dashed.
The past played out in her mind,
The old messages grabbed and squeezed her heart.
The words so familiar from so long ago,
Set forth emotions tagged in between the lines.
She tried to release her hold on sorrow.
Her body slackens and then died.
The life that I tried to live dies and burns to ashes.
