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a little girl under a starry night,
wishing upon the stars so bright...
take me far,
far, far away...
where no one knows mi,
to a place without hate.
a little girl under a starry night,
wishing upon the stars so bright...
she had long lost her directions,
long forgot her goals.
she had long given away all she had
so now she stands alone and cold.
failure lingered like a bitter taste in her mouth,
irritating her.
the pain she buried it deep within her weak heart,
and vowed never to let it surface.
now,
a battered soul held together by sheer will,
a worn and tired body frozen stiff,
stood against the wind as one-
the little girl.
a little girl under a starry night,
wishing upon the stars so bright...
want to disappear..
want to become so small none will notice..
just an insignificant being unworthy of attention,
not even a speck of dust in this universe,
just let me be..
and so,
the little girl under a starry night,
who wished upon the stars so bright,
sat down and fall into a deep sleep..
no one remembered
a little girl who wished upon the bright stars on a starry night...
A nightmarish reality
when will it stop?
i had a nightmare the night before. itz so damn stupid. blez.i dreamt that i was attending a prom. it was held in a school. i guessed it was a prom since everyone was so donning stunning evening gowns. but strangely, it lasted for a few days, like a camp. it didna seemed like a few days but somehow, i just knew. i remembered friends with mi
but not sure who.on the last day, i lost my slippers so we searched high and low for it. we searched all the rooms and in one, there was this pregnant woman.her hair was long and messy, her face couldna be seen. she was wearing what looked like an old, battered, purple floralled dirty nightgown and her belly was hu-uge.she was sitting on the floor, trying to get up. without thinking, i started to walk over to help her up. my friends tried to dissuade mi and hold mi back but i dinna understand why i shouldna help the lady.i helped the lady up.suddenly, she grabbed my neck and strangled mi. i struggled but she was stronger. i couldna breathe. i couldna wake up. i tried choking her but it had no effect. my friends had fled. i was alone with this witch.
then i woke up.
blez.hehe.
stupid dream huh?
i thought about the dream and wondered. what is a pregnant woman doing in a prom? why canna i see her face? why the hell did i try to help her up? why had my friends abandoned mi?
lame. (>.<)
tell me, tell me, tell me.
why has we turned out thus?
like two strangers pretending our lives hadna crossed.
teach me what 'm sposed to do.
'v lost all motivation.
all ma energy had turned to dust.
flyin higher higher finally to naught.
tell me, tell me, tell me.
why has we turned out thus?
like two strangers pretending our lives hadna crossed.
weakness clung to me,
weakness fed on my desperation and prospered.
weakness i used to hate.
weakness i succumbed.
weakness: me.
tell me, tell me, tell me.
why has we turned out thus?
like two strangers pretending our lives hadna crossed?
does this means our lives had parted ways,
never ever to cross again?
that 'l never see ye bright brown eyes again?
that 'l never touch ye strong broad shoulders again?
that 'l never feel ye safe calloused hands again?
that 'l never hear ye lazy drawl again?
that 'l never taste ye salty tears again?
tell me, tell me, tell me.
why has we turn out thus?
lke two strangers pretending our lives hadna crossed?
night has evaded me yet again. when will it come meekly to me like it used to?
sighz~
in dagez room listening to him strummin his guitar, singing his christian hymms or whatever they'r called. think he singz them every night. at least he did the last few nights i were here.
been pigging out. heez~ =X ma latest crazez pancakes. heez~ been forcing them down yingz throat too. wahaha~ *evil laughter* hooked on ben&jerry ice cream too. yumm-mii... *licks lips* talking about lips, the side of ma lips hurts!! cracked or somethin.. blez~
yeah~ dagez bringin me and ying to tian tian steamboat on sun. cant wait. (^v^) heez~ mommy says 'bring me go eat steamboat waste money' since i eat so little. waha~ just wait and see.. u'l be surprised. bleahz. (>.<)
dage stopped strummin le. so quiet now. he will prolly be kickin me outta his room in about.. 2mins. blez.
hope sleep finds me soon, or i find sleep soon. either way. 'm not picky. =P
nightz. and a kiss for maself since no one applied for this job. (-.-)('x-)
pain so acute,
soul had faded into mysterious night.
rigid body remained rooted,
world had crumbled,
disintegrated; broken; dissolved
ma baby~
searching...
dreaming of the good times behind us,
thinking of ma loneliness ahead,
keeping my silence between.
sorrow filled ma every veins,
uncertainty a fact.
caution thrown into the wind,
total abandonment of ma self worth,
a souless body is worth naught
while the loveless soul roam the streets.
searching...
ma baby~
faces flashed by,
none seemed permanent.
the path chosen seemed empty,
no one to fill this void.
voices talking
but no' to me.
im naught but a selfish fool.
they laughed at my ignorance,
ignorance to what i gave up for a freedom i donna want.
ma baby~
i can do naught but weep,
do naught but greet,
do naught but clench my fists and walk on,
do naught but watch ye leave me.
they say whatz done is done,
whatz gone had gone.
i beg to differ.
whatz gone may never return
but itz memories will never leave.
whatz done canna be undone
but the past will be back to haunt.
sleepless nights spent.
paranoia a disease
that plague ma mind.
eyes played tricks.
menacing shadows mistook for ghosts,
distant cat meows mistook for the dead calling,
ma baby~
